Wounds That Never Show

I was thinking to write down this from long time, especially since SSR’s death. All on social media are talking, discussing, empathizing about his death & depression. But how many of you have supported your family/friends when they are truly in need.

EQ of each person is different from other. The moment/ instance that break you down may not be a reason of worry at all for the other. Once something happens, people start bothering you with a set of “DO’s” & “Don’ts”. They don’t even bother to think about your emotional side. Depression is not something which develops in a day or two. It is a continuous process. It keeps adding up to your underlying problem. When people are not able to cope up with the changes or setbacks they will have to seek medical help or some may even end up taking up their life.   

Just like other body illness, mental illness also should be talked of & taken care of. It should also be rectified just like you seek help in rectifying other body illness. Unlike physical ailment, mental ailment needs support from others. It is the love & care of people around them cures.

I have many friends from different stages of life like school, college, marriage, work etc. But there are only few (I can count using my hands & can say it is less than even 10) to who I’m close to. I’m not a person to talk about SSR’s death/depression because I don’t know him personally. But I can explain very well in my case.

Phase 1 : Childhood

I was grown up in a middle class joint family. Children learn a lot of things from the people around them. Their actions, words etc plays a significant role in character formation of a child. I saw elders around me respect people based on their financial status, not by their deeds. We were never appreciated for small good things which we did. Instead were given severe punishments for a small mistake. There was only jealousy & cunningness around.

Phase 2 : School & College Life

I was above average student at studies when at school. Other than studies, I used to be active in cultural as well as sports too. I was popular among students & teachers. My parents, teachers and many well-wishers had a great expectation on my class 10 board exams. But my marks were very much low than what I expected or others expected from me. And this was just beginning of my failures. This continued till graduation that I lost my self confidence. There was mental breakdown. I became silent as well as lost interest in life. I wanted to stay alone all-time. But here at this stage there were few friends who brought me back to normal life.

Phase 3 : Career & Post Marriage Life

Till date I have been juggling with my career. I have not got an opportunity wherein either I can use my academic skills or my personal skill to the fullest. I got several setbacks one after the other. But I don’t want to list it here. Because of which I too was on the verge of depression. But I didn’t seek any medical help because there was a person who supported me and because of whom I’m back to my normal life today.

But all these have changed my outlook towards life. Enjoy your life to the fullest when you have it in your hand. You never know what would happen tomorrow. It has also changed my character a lot. For those who don’t know me well I’m arrogant, short tempered person. But I love the way I’m. So there is a story behind every person. Try to accept him/her the way he/she is rather than being judgemental. May be you can influence him/her for a positive change.

So imagine a pressure a celebrity like SSR would have faced. Also it is with his own hard work, passion & ability he made a place for himself in Bollywood. Still he couldn’t survive. I agree suicide is not a solution to this. But can anyone imagine what would have he been going through to take such a drastic step.