Invisible Hands

 

People who know me from my childhood, might also know that I'm a devotee of lord shiva or more specifically Vaikathappa. There has never been a single day which went without me uttering 'ende vaikathappa' meaning my lord. I did my class 11 & 12 at NSS HSS, Tripunithura. I was nicknamed vaikathappa. People knew me by that name, rather than my own name.

But few years back, I felt even after being such a strong devotee of shiva, I had to face some continuous setbacks from my age of 14. So, I distanced myself from vaikathappa. Yes, at times I prayed to him though.

I realized few days back that his invisible hands were over me throughout these years. He was protecting me from all those situations where in it was supposed to happen worse than what actually happened. I'm blessed with handful of people who love & care about me. Among them there are very few (precisely 5 to 8) with whom I can pour my heart. But they are actually the angels who were sent by vaikathappa. That's how I want to believe. I was not in contact with one person, with whom I used to be very close with. I don’t know why we stopped talking to each other. But just a call changed everything. I didn't feel that I was talking after such a long time. But definitely that call made my head & heart lighter. I spoke out. I don't know whether he/she understood the situation I was in. Because I spoke a lot jumping from situation to situation all which I had been carrying for last 2 years. And it even made me realize that after all we all are a family!!! 

I don't want to mention their names either. But will understand themselves when they read this post. I really thank them for being there when I needed help really.

And so definitely I can shout out to people that, please do speak out whenever you feel to. There will be some invisible hand meant for you. There will be people around you for whom your financial status, family status, occupational status or any other status doesn't matter. If something matters to them its you and just about you. They would not be able to give you a solution, but definitely listen to you and give you enough strength & courage to take a decision/solution by your own. 

PS: Taking one’s life is not a solution to end your problems. It would rather end you with lot many. Moreover, it will make others believe that you were indeed wrong.

Quarantine

 

Quarantine is a word which whole world is talking about or familiar with Covid-19. I came across this word quarantine say a few years back, when I got my first laptop around 15 years back. This is how I came across the word quarantine. So, when I got my first laptop, the first task was to install an anti-virus which was considered more important than anything else. I too did. Whenever I used to insert a pen drive, I used to perform an antivirus scan before opening it. That’s how once I came across this new word quarantine. The scan result told me that particular file has been quarantined. Those days google was not that popular and so I asked one of my friends about it. She told me; the file won’t be deleted because it can’t be. But it will be kept aside so that it doesn’t affect working of other program/files. I used to wonder where these files would be kept.

Years later, I again come across this word quarantine. And that’s how I ended up with this blog. The word quarantine comes from quarantena, meaning "forty days", used in the Venetian language in the 14th and 15th centuries. The word designated the period during which all ships were required to be isolated before passengers and crew could go ashore during the Black Death plague. The quarantena followed the trentino, or thirty-day isolation period, first imposed in 1347 in the Republic of Ragusa, Dalmatia (modern Dubrovnik in Croatia). (Source Credit : Wikipedia)

Now that I know the verbal meaning & stuff, I started to think about myself. Even I had to do a self- quarantine because of first person contact. But after undergoing it, I feel a self-quarantine is actually required for each & every person. He/she should practice it every now and then. Just like it helps in preventing the spread of disease, it also helps one to prevent the spread of negativity. A quarantine which is needed for one’s mental wellbeing. It actually should consist of one taking a break from daily routine and do something which gives happiness & peace to the mind. A happy self can only spread happiness around us. All of us has a saturation point or breakeven point. Beyond which it will be mental breakdown. Even I needed that break badly. I hope I can recreate a new happy me.